Soapbox Sunday: I refuse to give up.

I've done this before. I've dieted. And I had no freaking clue what the hell I was doing. BUT NOW I DO. And now I am smart enough to see when I'm slipping. Sure, Friday is my "freebie dinner" day, but that's just bullshit when I let it slip into my Saturday "Well, I haven't "technically" gone to bed yet...." or my "Gosh, these Valentine treats I'm making for Kaiao look soo good."

Bullshit. I call bullshit on myself. I am strong enough, and EDUCATED enough to see what I am doing, and I. REFUSE. TO. GIVE. UP.

I refuse to slide off the deep end this easily. I refuse to let myself slide away slowly. I cannot hold myself to that standard. Losing weight begins with healthy, consistent diet. It adds with strong, positive, constant exercise. These are things I can do. These are things I can promise myself. And I will. I do. I do now.

So. Sure, I stand by my "Friday Freebie Dinner" but I stand by my no grains, no sugars, as well. I stand by my making good choices and making good concessions. I stand by my tendency to treat myself well. I stand by my ability to make the best, strongest, most playable choice. I will succeed. I will accomplish my goal. I will lose the weight I want to lose, and I will do it because I WANT TO, and not because it "accidentally" happens. Whatever happens to me, I will choose. Because I can.

I will not accept excuses from myself. I will celebrate holidays ONCE. I will love the way I feel, because I cannot help it. I will let myself enjoy being healthy. I will remind myself that this feels good, and I am allow to explore what healthy feels like. I will realize that I know my body so well, and I know what I can and cannot handle.

I will stand by my goal until it is accomplished, and then I will set a new one. I will be better because I already am. I will. I can. I do. I shall. I am.